Last on the List Again.

But that's ok.  He's not even on my list.  And my list is short.  Matters not as I will go my own way today.  We are taking Maggie to the vet this morning.  I will go along so I can ask my questions and also get the true answers as Hunter tends to get it wrong, or ignore it.  If  I don't go along he will get mad at any questions I have regarding the visit to the vet.  He's often says...."Go ask them/him or her yourself!"  He is unable to just communicate like an adult except on occasion with other people.  That is ...when he's not telling them what they should be doing or lying about what he himself has done.I

He can't wake me up today to tell me what to do.  I have been up since before 4 am.  Went to bed at about 6 pm.  Almost fell asleep coming home from my therapist.  Truly, I was nodding off.  So I made dinner immediately when I got home and also took my clothes off the line.  That was all I could manage.  Will do the rest today.  See?  When I get awaken-especially without enough sleep- I am walking through my day halfway awake.

I made the coffee and walked Maggie around the block.  I guess that was the wrong thing to do-according to the "lord and master" of the world-as he needed a stool sample to bring to the vet.  Well she pooped twice for me.  I picked up the one and threw it in the trash-in a bag-and left the other one as it was at the corner house that is abandoned and has very tall grass.  He's like...we can pick that up to take to the vet.  Hm.  I told him to just take the one that's already in the bag, in the trash cart.  It was so funny when I let Maggie out of her kennel.  She ran to her dish to look for food as I ran to the leash to take her outside.  Ha!  I win! 

I may just start going to bed at 6pm every evening.  There is one benifit that I really appreciate.  It is 63 degrees out!!!!  Will be in the upper 80's again today so I am definetly enjoying this.

I need to thank all of you that commented on the post about me being nobody's anything.  They meant so much to me.  I don't know if you can understand the depth of my gratitude.  Filled me with teary-eyed JOY!

OK.  I know I didn't spell everything correctly but when I hit spell-check, it gave me the message that spell-check isn't working correctly and to try again, which I did.  Still no response.  Feel free to take out your red pencil, cross out the wrong words and send it back to me.  I will try to correct my errors.

Should have posted this last night.

I was over it last night.  Sitting 30 minutes at a dead stand still on the tollway gave me time to think.  Then to see the cause of the delay,.....a 2 car accident in which one car burned and the other was rolled over into oblivion kinda puts things into perspective.  I was sure no one could survive but I checked on line and saw that one person was air-lifted to the hospital where my daughter works (serious burns).  And four other people were taken by ambulance to area hospitals, none of their injuries were determined to be life threatening.  Prayers do work.

It is finally not in the 100's or even in the 90's today. Notice I did not say cooler because 80 degrees is still too warm for me.  There is a 15 MPH breeze.  Still too warm/humid to open up and turn off the air conditioner.  We did open up last night though. Will probably open up tonight too because it is s'pose to be in the 60's.  That alone is cause for celebration!

Josh's party was really fun!  Dawn's kids canceled at the last minute.  Remember the bad blood between her and her brother's wife.  Everyone was pissed including me.  But later I texted my daughter and they went to her husband's sister's to celebrate the 4th of July which they had cancelled due to the excessive heat.  And a good part of this is due to lack of communication on the part of my daughter, my son and their dad.  Especially my daughter and my ex.  Odd considering that I communicate honestly, openly and directly.  Not my problem, (thanks Mary/my therapist.)  The kids were on the slip and slide when I got there.  Then they came in and we ate - Jennifer's awesome chili - because that's what  Josh wanted.  They went outside where an extremely creative obstacle course was set up and the kids were timed.  John and Jenn come up with the most amazing things for the kids to do!  They play Iron Chef and that Minute to Win It show.  My husband did ask me why I was mad as I left yesterday saying he can't read my mind.  This is a true expectation that women have of their men.  It's like, "They should just know!"  It is a miracle that he even asked that. My bad that I was too mad to even tell him.  I am not excusing his behavior that I wrote about last night.  I am just saying........  He also called telling me not to take the toll road home as they were still investigating the accident scene.  And he told me to drive safe.  See how easy it is to please me?  I am not a difficult or demanding person.

We went to church this morning though we almost didn''t because his breathing was bad.  He gets this clumps of phlegm in his throat that he can't get out.  He did call his son and cancel.  Best for all concerned.  Hunter feeling sick and Matt and family flying out tonight.

So....tomorrow is the dentist which isn't really bad.  I often just want to go to sleep with him in the chair.  And I feel so good once I am done.  Then psych for a med check then will call my friend -who is visiting from Arizona - to have her and her husband come out to visit.

Nothing new and perhaps boring for readers but it is my diary and......that's how I roll!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA!