Everything is perfect in Pleasantville. Maybe. I don't know. I am too weary to notice.

Hunter finally had his surgery yesterday.  Took less than a half hour.  No problems.  They have to wait for the culture to know what kind of bacteria so that they can put him on the right antibiotics.  He gets to come home tomorrow!  He is being a very good patient.  Honestly, Hunter is becoming much um......nicer?  Sadly, I do believe it is due to his declining health.  I will be going to the hospital as I have everyday for a week.  Is it bad that I wish I could stay home just this one day?  I think I will just go earlier than I had planned and only stay about 3 hours. 

Maggie misses him like crazy.  I soooo want to take her there to see him.  But since she is a little shit-though I am coming to love her-I know it isn't allowed.  She lays at the door doing her little crying.  Just a couple times a day but it breaks my heart.  She also puts her upper body on my lap-standing on her hind legs-just for comfort.

And then there's the rain.  Dreary so...yeah.  I think it's tomorrow night that the low will be 35 degrees.  WTH?  Pity the people that have planted their annuals.  But then I may never even get to that.  Thankfully I have alot of perennials.

Again...I apologize for not reading posts.  I miss it.  Please know that nothing here is serious.  My daughter is fine.  Hunter is fine.  I did have emotional issues Tuesday night when I went out to my daughter's for her son's awards ceremony.  I suppose it had alot to do with all that has been going on but the grandkids.....they just made me cry.  No hellos, no goodbyes, no thanks for coming.  Love you, hugs....nothing.  I feel like I am nothing to them.  Yes they are teenagers.  Yes they have gone thru so much and still are.  But they have so much love and support.  Am I asking too much that they at least acknowledge me?  If nothing else, at least comment back when I ask them something like, "When is your next track meet?"  Or accept when I tell them I am proud of them.   Their whole lives I have been there for them.  I am the "fun" grandma.  Wish they were still little.  I miss their joy, honesty and wonder at all things.  So I was crying out in the parking lot as we were walking to our cars.  Dawn held me as I cried and asked me what was wrong.  I told her it was the way her kids treated me.  As if I didn't exist.   And I told her not to tell the kids.  I squeezed her arm a bit tightly.  As I left crying....I said to the kids, " I will let you know if Pa-Chuck dies."  Wow!  Could I get more immature than that?  I do not do that.  Ever.  No response from that.  Dawn ended up telling Nate kind of by mistake and he texted an apology but the wording seemed a bit like what Dawn said to him rather than his own words and feelings.  I suppose I am over reacting but when I think of the fact that we have gone to most of their games and concerts and stuff for all these years....they live 45 minutes to an hour away, gas is over $4 etc.  Oh.  And did I mention that constuction is a real bitch right now?

All is well.  Not to worry,  I will be fine.  I always am.  Peace and Love to all of you.

To fib or not to fib.

Hunter's surgery will be put off.  He has to see his cardiologist first.  I need to bring his phrenic nerve stimulator.  They think his heart abnormality may have something to do with that.  He sounded fine when he called me.  He also has to see his "primary" doctor whom he hates. Yeah I know.
Then tonight I go to Cain's award ceremony.

I must love hospitals.

Hunter is in hospital.  He needs IV antibiotics as his cellulitis is worse.  That's a skin infection that can enter the blood stream.  He also needs surgery to remove the huge clot that is the bursa sac below his knee.  In the hospital they did an EKG as is normal before surgery.  Turns out he has atrial fibrilation.  So they will have to check with his cardiac surgeon in the morning.  So yeah.  I don't think things are too serious.  Prayers. Please.

At least he doesn't have a blood clot.

Quick one here.  Good thing I have experience with quickies!
I got home from Dawn's late last night.  I took the tollway even though it is all under construction.  There are scary close cement barriers on both sides and it was a stuggle for me to drive inside the lines given that I desperately need to see the eye doctor and I was exhausted, ok I was pretty much asleep.  Then you have the jack-wagons that insist on passing at high rates of speed, though most drivers were doing the right thing.  I began to take the back roads until I realized I would be missing my turns and stuff cuz I was....(see above.)
This morning I went with Hunter to the doctor because of his whole leg being swollen and bruised from when he fell up the stairs several days ago.  He had an xray to see if anything was broken.  Then was sent to the hospital for a stat ultrasound to check for blood clots.  No problems so he did get to come home.  He does, however have celulitis-skin infection that is serious-so he is on antibiotics.
Now I need to get ready to back out to my daughter's as her son Cain is in a presentation of the war veteeran's documentaries that they made.
Tomorrow I hope to be hospitalized for exhaustion.  Ha!

Love to all of you.  Muah!

I should have been a doctor.

Not only do I like alot of body parts on certain people but...er, no...wait.
Dawn is home.  Doing better.  One of my best friends just found out her husband has cancer.  1 tumor in lung.  3 in brain, one of which the did remove.  The other 2 are inoperable.  He will not recover from this though if he chooses chemo and radiation it would buy him some time.  Cain-Dawn's son-came home from school today sick.  My son and daughter's grandma is back in the hospital after having two valves replaced. (she's 85).  Can't think of what else. 

Oh yeah....Hunter got back from Wisconsin.  He went there to hunt.  He trimmed apple trees and a multitude of chores for his "boyfriend" Brian.
He came home yesterday and had to mow.  His tone of voice was such that you could he felt put upon.  And I didn't get a card out to his grandson-remember how blood is family meaning I am not.  Won't get into that.  He had to take out the trash because it was full.  And I left a ton of dishes that he had to do.  OK.  You guys know that is bullshit.  And he was such a dick to me on the phone with me this morning. 
I imagine this time it is because he fell up the stairs injuring his shin.  His leg is all swollen and not good but he won't go to his GP cuz he doesn't like him.  So he relies on his pulmonologist and his ortho guy as his 'primary.  I want him to go in for an ultra-sound now cuz it sounds like the time he got a blood clot.  But.....no.  He pisses me off so much.
I need to stay one more night even though I don't have tomorrow mornings meds.  That's no big deal.  He wasn't happy with that, I guess, because he said, "Get Jackson a birthday card while you are out gallivanting. " 
Really?
I know many of you are going through things that are very, very serious.
I am exhausted though. 

Love you guys and again.....will try to read posts when I can.

And the beat goes on.....

Dawn should be able to come home soon.  I will stay 'till Tuesday.  Dawn had a bad ITU that started to enter her kidneys.  Today her temp was normal and her blood pressure is getting back up to where it belongs. Like me, she has high blood pressure.  Her meds control it pretty much but her pressure has never been so low.  And they had a trying time getting it to come back up.  They also did a spinal tap and the headache she had been having with the high fevers became very, very painful.  She just cried all day yesterday.  The pain killed.  Better today.  The doctor is still going to keep an eye on that to be sure it isn't a leak or whatever that is sometimes a complication with a lumbar puncture.  If it is....she will have to get another procedure where they take blood from your arm and inject it in your spine..  Just yuk.  And I am embarrassed that I don't know the name of the procedure.  That's kind of my thing.  But I am tired.

On the plus side......Meadow woke up a real human being today.  Yay!  Boys were better too.  So...I am going to rest here.  I am having back spasms and my throat is sore.  I better not be sick!!!!!

Oh.  And though I don't remember alot, I do remember the name of my first lipstick.  How weird is that?  I was in 6th grade and that was back in the Go-Go boots era.  The lipstick was a super frosty whitish-pink called.....BEAT PINK!  Oh come on.  Give me a Woo=Hoo here.  Me remembering anything is quite an achievement for me.

Let me just add this to those of you who want to go to that Island with me....
I do not want to go to South Padre Island.  Been there.  Done that and it was cold and stupid and there's only 3 streets and dead fish and shit on the shore.
I don't want an Island where the Jelly Fish sting you and someone has to pee on you to make it stop hurting not that I mind being peed on.   Coffey, if you are reading....... shut up!  I don't want to hear about showers, golden or otherwise!
I want pristine white beaches, those cabanas with big beds and the hunks that bring you drinks.... 

Brief.

Dawn is in the hospital.  She's been in for 3 days.  I have been with the grandkids and they don't even care.  They don't really ask about her.  Meadow has been an ass.  Yeah, she has emotional issues but alot of what she writes is bullshit.  She has ignored me pretty much the whole time I have been here.  How can she not give or recieve love.  I am so done with her!!!!!It's just.....
I am fucking exhausted.  Yeah so.....I just wanted to post this.  Too tired and it' half past midnight.  Need to charge computer.  I have probably smoked about 3 packs of cigarettes today.  I thought a road construction barrier was a guy hitch hiking.  Yeah, I need about a year on an island somewhere.