At the VFW for rib eye. Hunter likes to go and tries to chat up anyone that will listen. So he is talking to our friend and I hear him say,....wrinkly LABIA . WTF!!!!! Everyone went silent and stared at him.
Speaking of romance.....we didn't go out on our Anniversary/Valentines day. He suggested we go Saturday and asked where I wanted to go. I said Olive Garden but I know he doesn't like it. So...as we had talked previously...we would go to a nice Italian restaurant that we'd gone to once before. Then he's like.....How about 1776 - a restaurant we haven't eaten at but I grabbed a menu once and it looks like a great place to eat. So I said OK. Next thing he is asking if a married couple we know could come with us. Valentines Day. Romance. Anniversary. What am I not understanding here?
How to use a snow blower: Show the wife how to start it (lots more to starting it than our last one.) Tell her. Then have her do it. Then yell at her when she asks what the second to the last step was. And yell at her like she is 5. On the bright side? At least it wasn't too cold. The tears didn't freeze on my cheek.
And so often during the day I want to write another thing down on this blog. But by the time I get to using the computer...I am usually just wanting to escape. It's like my day's seem so shitty to me that I really don't care too much.
I can't explain how I feel. I am not physically abused. I am not sexually abused. I thought I was verbally abused - after all, once he called me a knee and I had to ask him what that meant - it means lower than a cunt. Fuck-it. It's just not worth it. My therapist says it is emotional abuse.
I know I should leave. I have no money to go anywhere. Either one of my kids would have me but they are financially unstable. I could sell my house that was fully paid for in 1988 but that now has a mortgage that is equal to the amount my house is worth now.
I could. I would. I should.
Not looking for pity here. I am the fool. I know that.
Showing posts with label Olive Garden. Show all posts
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Friday, February 22, 2013
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
He's stalking me!!!!
Or....what is that thing.....no, not a doppelganger, Um...like a monkey on my back but no....how about a barnacle? Well no..I mean a barnacle just is there right? Then what???? A mosquito?
Your turn. What is something that just follows you around and bugs the shit out of you!? ( and I don't mean a two-year old.) I just had to get away so I took a Xanax and came out to the garage to spend some time with you. Guess who showed up not 3 seconds later. DAMN! I mean really? You just don't even want to know. And none of it is mean spirited. It's just one stupid phrase after the next.
I mentioned that I thought we had more of these chairs (white plastic) to sit on at the sale. Like the one over there, I pointed out. He said, "There, behind that ladder, are 6 oak folding chairs." Um. No.
I have a $360.00 Marino Orlandi briefcase that I am selling. Looks new. Next thing you know...he is saying to keep it and use it as a purse when we go to church. Whaaaat?
We have set up two tables and he brought out some of my totes but then he had to go through his old magazines to gather the ones he's giving to Brian- his 'boyfriend'. And as I was walking out the door with my arms full, he says, "As long as you are going out, could you take this tote out with you and put it with the others?" So I take out my handful of stuff and lay it down then go back in to grab the tote.
He tells me he is going to get up early and power wash the driveway and the patio tomorrow. I did get him to agree to do that next week. BTW, it's not dirty.
Then he's telling me to make meal plans for the next three days and go shopping. Says we aren't eating fast food - that's what John and Jennifer like. Me too when we are busy like this. Then he says we can take them out to eat. Lukes. Olive Garden.
Asked me if John still liked sweet tea. Said he'd make some for him and put it in a big jug and bring it out for him. I checked with John and he said yes. He didn't make it though.
They are bringing grand dog Tebow with them tomorrow. Jenn said they'd bring his crate. I said no....that's ok, we have one. Told Hunter and he said no....ours was too big and it would be too hard to get out of the garage - also not true.
Speaking of the garage, --------------
Sorry I left so abruptly there. My neighbor called and said to come over to their church cuz they were setting up ahead of time and we could go through first. I got 2 lefton figurines...a bird and a butterfly. These are china and about 5" high on tree branch with flowers. Anyway, I collect Lefton so I brought them home. While I was there I talked with the neighbor's mom who lives two doors down from us. Hunter always goes there to pick-up her old papers and have a cup of coffee ad stuff. She knows how he is in reality but I was really surprised when she said he says nice things about me. She wouldn't lie, right? I mean, she is the sweetest woman on earth. She's 89 and more active than I am.
Anyway, my Xanax has kicked in and after being at the church with them, I feel much better.
As always.....thanks for listening.
Your turn. What is something that just follows you around and bugs the shit out of you!? ( and I don't mean a two-year old.) I just had to get away so I took a Xanax and came out to the garage to spend some time with you. Guess who showed up not 3 seconds later. DAMN! I mean really? You just don't even want to know. And none of it is mean spirited. It's just one stupid phrase after the next.
I mentioned that I thought we had more of these chairs (white plastic) to sit on at the sale. Like the one over there, I pointed out. He said, "There, behind that ladder, are 6 oak folding chairs." Um. No.
I have a $360.00 Marino Orlandi briefcase that I am selling. Looks new. Next thing you know...he is saying to keep it and use it as a purse when we go to church. Whaaaat?
We have set up two tables and he brought out some of my totes but then he had to go through his old magazines to gather the ones he's giving to Brian- his 'boyfriend'. And as I was walking out the door with my arms full, he says, "As long as you are going out, could you take this tote out with you and put it with the others?" So I take out my handful of stuff and lay it down then go back in to grab the tote.
He tells me he is going to get up early and power wash the driveway and the patio tomorrow. I did get him to agree to do that next week. BTW, it's not dirty.
Then he's telling me to make meal plans for the next three days and go shopping. Says we aren't eating fast food - that's what John and Jennifer like. Me too when we are busy like this. Then he says we can take them out to eat. Lukes. Olive Garden.
Asked me if John still liked sweet tea. Said he'd make some for him and put it in a big jug and bring it out for him. I checked with John and he said yes. He didn't make it though.
They are bringing grand dog Tebow with them tomorrow. Jenn said they'd bring his crate. I said no....that's ok, we have one. Told Hunter and he said no....ours was too big and it would be too hard to get out of the garage - also not true.
Speaking of the garage, --------------
Sorry I left so abruptly there. My neighbor called and said to come over to their church cuz they were setting up ahead of time and we could go through first. I got 2 lefton figurines...a bird and a butterfly. These are china and about 5" high on tree branch with flowers. Anyway, I collect Lefton so I brought them home. While I was there I talked with the neighbor's mom who lives two doors down from us. Hunter always goes there to pick-up her old papers and have a cup of coffee ad stuff. She knows how he is in reality but I was really surprised when she said he says nice things about me. She wouldn't lie, right? I mean, she is the sweetest woman on earth. She's 89 and more active than I am.
Anyway, my Xanax has kicked in and after being at the church with them, I feel much better.
As always.....thanks for listening.
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