Why am I feeling this way? I am going to pick-up my grand daughter Meadow today and for some reason I am in high anxiety mode. WTF! I actually like the drive out there. Meadow is totally accepting and easy going like me. I am going to cut her hair. That's no big deal. I still cut hair. I am going to call to see how much it costs to get the ends dyed pink or purple. (yeah, I got mom's approval.) We will watch tv and eat and play games and stuff.
I know it will be fun. I truly know that. Wish somebody could fix me.
We did get some snow. Possible and inch. The neighbor shoveled my driveway, which wasn't necessary but I am grateful none-the-less.
I watched the movie 28 Days with Sandra Bullock. It's about rehad. I want to be her. To have those kind of friends. I want to have that enlightenment The contentment and happiness that comes from accomplishing something. To have the strength to overcome my issues. I know it isn't easy. But I want that strength. I want to be proud of myself. To "wake up" and see the beauty in our world through clear eyes.
I am sure my next post will be full of the joy of my visit with Meadow. But I just had to put my feelings into words.
Thanks for listening. Peace.