so. how many Xanax can I take and still drive?

Why am I feeling this way?  I am going to pick-up my grand daughter Meadow today and for some reason I am in high anxiety mode.  WTF!  I actually like the drive out there.  Meadow is totally accepting and easy going like me.  I am going to cut her hair.  That's no big deal.  I still cut hair.  I am going to call to see how much it costs to get the ends dyed pink or purple.  (yeah, I got mom's approval.)   We will watch tv and eat and play games and stuff. 
I know it will be fun.  I truly know that.  Wish somebody could fix me.

We did get some snow.  Possible and inch.  The neighbor shoveled my driveway, which wasn't necessary but I am grateful none-the-less. 

I watched the movie 28 Days with Sandra Bullock.  It's about rehad.  I want to be her.  To have those kind of friends.  I want to have that enlightenment   The contentment and happiness that comes from accomplishing something.  To have the strength to overcome my issues.  I know it isn't easy.  But I want that strength.  I want to be proud of myself.  To "wake up" and see the beauty in our  world through clear eyes.

I am sure my next post will be full of the joy of my visit with Meadow.  But I just had to put my feelings into words.

Thanks for listening.  Peace.

Wishing thankfulness could be the daily norm.

I have a headache.  A bad one but not a migraine.  So much noise.  Three very noisy kids.  Loud football on TV and 7 dogs.  But......it was a wonderful Thanksgiving.  Great meal and we played a board game later in the afternoon.  The weather was good too.  It's nice here.  No bugs, abundant sunshine and so many other things I can't count.  Problem is.....you have to change outfits every couple hours because the temps are crazy.  Cold then hot and repeat often through out the day.  This time of year it isn't so hot you have to put the air on and it isn't so cold that you have to put the heat on.   The roads are nice and well designed.  I enjoy driving around here.  'Course we haven't gone to the strip yet and I can tell you that when we do, I will not be driving.

Hope you all had a wonderful day.  We all have things to be grateful for.  I think we just need to be more aware of all the things we take for granted.

Peace.