Thursday, November 1, 2012

I need more drugs!!!!!

Maggie is fine.  Hunter is leaving soon for hunting or whatever the hell it is he really does.  I am going to Vegas a day or two before he gets home.  He finally said he would pay for my flight but no spending money.  I said I would be fine.  He was shocked that I didn't respond the way he wanted to.  He likes to argue.  Then he asked if I had called my investment (IRA) people to have them send me money.  I said no.  I didn't need any.  I told him my son and daughter-in-law would feed me.  You know....I could get into all his bullshit but I won't bore you.  I think you pretty well know the drill with him.  I even got my starter husband to agree to drive me to the airport and also pick me up.  How cool is that?  I know Hunter is frustrated that he can't get me all pissed off.  Funny thing is...this morning I wasn't feeling good because of all the stress the last week or so.  And he asks if I am OK.  And it really does feel like he cares but eventually it all comes up in a negative way when he is yelling at me.  We went to the apple orchard and while I was literally falling asleep, we got a bunch of stuff and had a good time.  He even seemed concerned cuz I kept falling asleep in the truck.  I NEVER do that.  So that tells you how I have been feeling.  Now he's threatening to take away the   discover card.  It is what I use for gas and cigs.  I get no  money.  None.  He's an ass but I won't leave.  I just need to learn to ignore him.  I have alot of medical needs and could never afford it on my own.  The one thing I won't do is touch my retirement.  He can try all he wants to get me to do so.  Not gonna happen.  Never.  It is the only thing I can count on.   If worse comes to worse-I know, how much worse could it get-I will quit taking any pills and die if that's the way it will be.  But hey, he can't take away my insurance as long as we are married. 
I will be fine.  I just need to go deaf and ignore him.  If anyone leaves.....it's gonna be him.
Looking forward to spending a month away from him!!!!!!!!

11 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

Enjoy your month of freedom!

In the Pink said...

I love you girl and hope you are able to enjoy your month away. Oh and FUCK THE HUNTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He sounds like an ass.

Ally said...

You deserve that month of vacation! Enjoy it!

YeamieWaffles said...

I hate people who deliberately go out of their way to cause an argument Middle Child, my father being a clear example of that. I'm so glad that you're getting a month of freedom away from him and that Maggie is fine. I love your resolve and honestly if you ignore everything he does that you don't like then you'll honestly be fine, detachment is genuinely the best way of escaping from this kind of thing in my opinion.

Also "Hunter is leaving soon for hunting or whatever the hell it is he really does," made me laugh so much haha, I'm curious if he actually is a hunter now or not!

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

I think that my deceased husband loved to make me cry and CRY I DID...until ONE DAY I decided he wasn't worth my tears and stood up to his nasty tongue. It was then and there that I shut myself off from him. He saw a DIFFERENT ME and didn't like what he saw.
Neither did I like what I had become, but for sanities sake...IT HAD TO BE!
Fortunate for me...I have another chance and have a man that appreciates me and HE is getting what my husband could have enjoyed until death did we part.
R E S P E C T.... A short word, but it speaks volumes.
Have a wonderful visit with your family...gather strength in body and soul for what may come later.
WE matter...WE are deserving... let's never forget it.
Oh so much more I want to say. It comes down to...I CARE and have known the depth of your despair my friend. (((hugs)))Pat

Choleesa said...

sweetie, only you know why you hang around. BUT, at least you see the forest for the trees. The power to be happy is your alone. He does not have that power over you unless you give it to him. Screw him. He enjoys your misery, so give him a big "F" you by constantly smiling. Let him see he has NO CONTROL over your happiness.

Just Be Real said...

Hugs to you my dear. Take the time to care for yourself.

Vapid Vixen said...

I can't help but wonder why he's such a miserable human being bent on bringing you down with him?

bj said...

Dearest Middle Child...Hunter makes me sad...sad for you.
I do hope you go to be with your son....I can't imagine being in Vegas (or anywhere else, for that matter) for a month with no money.
SHAME ON HUNTER...I don't care what anyone says, that's just being damn mean. Shame on him for treating you like this. One day, he will be sooo sorry and it will be too late...

Gnetch said...

Hunter makes me so angry! I'm sorry but did he have a miserable childhood or something?

I hope you can relax in Vegas. I'm relieved and glad that you're having a time away from him. Take care of yourself.

Jerry E Beuterbaugh said...

I hope your IRA is not set up like my wife's was. For "maintenance" and other fees was taking out almost as much as was being put in.