LICK THIS!

Just wanted to see if you're paying attention.  Damn global warming.  Hm,.....probably has something to do with obama care.  That's obama with a lower case o.

Well I have become a real cry-baby.  No.  I'm talking tears.  It's so stupid.  At group I usually cry off and on through the first third of it.  Seriously though.  I didn't even cry when I fell on the ice.  I did let out a resounding "Shit!" but other than that....Anyway, first they added Abilify.  Now I also start taking Welbutrin.  I start tomorrow.  I stupidly read the pamphlet.  And so now I hope I at least get to have the hallucinations before I commit suicide. I don't know how quickly this gets into your system but Hunter leaves 3 days from now and I kinda want him to be here.  Just in case.
I think I may call the Guinness Book of World Records.  I think I may have become the first person to take 10 + 1 pills every morning plus an inhaler without really having anything wrong with me.  You know what I mean.

Tomorrow we go pick up a friend's dog (Ace) - the dog's name, not the guy's - and will be "babysitting" him until Hunter leaves Monday, taking both Ace and our dog Maggie with him to Texas.  Hunter said Ace is kind of destructive as in I will need to pick up 10,000 things and get them out of the kitchen.

What else.  Oh, I spent New Year's eve and day with my daughter Dawn and her kids.  She knew it would be tough without her husband there and all that's going on between them.  And she also hit her personal best in self-harm. 2-3" cuts from wrists to inside elbow.  Nothing I say can get her to seek the help she needs.  But I think she is getting close.  She knows she needs help but is afraid her husband can take the kids away.  I also found out she has been cutting and stuff since 8th grade.  How could I not know that??????  and i wonder why i cry. 

I'd love to bitch about the impossibly cold weather but I know others are having it worse.  I'm talking to you Minnesota!  Sara, I hope your hubby bought you a fur coat!

Be well. 

Lurking not Twerking

Always tired and now always cold.  Can't complain tho.  So many of you got hit with snow and ice and not so nice weather.

Have starting going to what is called PHP.  Don't ask me what the letters stand for because no matter how many times I ask and the answer is given......I still don't remember.  It is a therapy group for people with all different mental health issues be it addiction or anxiety or depression or anger.  I really like it.  And it seems to be helping.  My psychiatrist comes in once a week to talk to each of us who see him.  He has tweaked - not twerked - my meds twice and I do think the addition of  *Abilify is helping.  I am also seeing the Pulmonologist and me favorite....the dentist to get a bridge which begs the question, what good does flossing and seeing the dentist every 6 months if this shit is gonna happen anyway!?

So, yeah.  I am just going to read up some here.  It seems like years.  I have no clue as to why I haven't been on line.  But if it's any consolation...I haven't been watching TV much either.  I don't know what I have been doing - to tell you the truth.

*sadly, I think this Abilify is affecting my vision.  Too bad since I got glasses about 2 monthes ago after not going to eye doc in 2-3 years.  And I could see sooooo much better!

Ok.  Gotta lurk.  Muah!
Always tired and now always cold. Can't complain tho. So many of you got hit with snow and ice and not so nice weather.

Have starting going to what is called PHP. Don't ask me what the letters stand for because no matter how many times I ask and the answer is given......I still don't remember. It is a therapy group for people with all different mental health issues be it addiction or anxiety or depression or anger. I really like it. And it seems to be helping. My psychiatrist comes in once a week to talk to each of us who see him. He has tweaked - not twerked - my meds twice and I do think the addition of *Abilify is helping. I am also seeing the Pulmonologist and me favorite....the dentist to get a bridge which begs the question, what good does flossing and seeing the dentist every 6 months if this shit is gonna happen anyway!?

So, yeah. I am just going to read up some here. It seems like years. I have no clue as to why I haven't been on line. But if it's any consolation...I haven't been watching TV much either. I don't know what I have been doing - to tell you the truth.

*sadly, I think this Abilify is affecting my vision. Too bad since I got glasses about 2 monthes ago after not going to eye doc in 2-3 years. And I could see sooooo much better!

Ok. Gotta lurk. Muah!