Saturday, October 20, 2012

two posts in one day? That's a first for me.

This post is brought to you by the letters FUCKHIM!!!!!!!!!!!!  Special guests are Bloody Mary and Xanax.  Satan was here but he did his work and left.
I mentioned to Hunter about my going to see my son again.  I even offered to stay here when he goes to Florida for a month or two, saying that it would save him money. He said it wouldn't because he would behaving to pay for two households. Hey, I can do without water and gas and electric. He told me I should just take money out of my investments and use that.  He's mentioned this several times before.  I know for a fact that it is the only money I can count on.  He told me several times over and over to quit work and so I did.   Now he holds that over my head.  I also know that if I did go back to work he would find a way to get that money too.  Like by making me buy my own food and pay my part of the utilities and so on. I know him.  And I don't mean to make light of this but I almost think I'd rather have him beat me on occcasion and be remorseful than be emotionally abusive.

Sorry but I am just so angry I want to punch someone and throw things that will shatter

9 comments:

momto8 said...

hope tomorrow is better.

Anonymous said...

I say Fuck Him too!!!! My man wants me to get a job but I am drawing it out to hopefully avoid that. I can't believe your Hunter is such a prick. I want better for you....I really do.

Kristy said...

Hang in there!

Outcast said...

I don't know how to feel when reading this Middle Child because there's so little about your life and about Hunter that I'm yet to know. It sounds like he's been a bit of a dick concerning this whole situation but at the same time you live with him and you've got a great eye for character and wouldn't spend all of your time living with a completely, constantly horrible person.

Whatever the situation is Middle Child, I really hope that you find a resolution as quickly as possible and that tomorrow is a far better day than today is. Be careful with the booze and prescription medication too, they're great at the time but when you wake up not so much.

Red Shoes said...

Oh man... what a mess this all seems to be. I am so so sorry you are having to endure this.

~shoes~

Yaya said...

I'm with YeamieWaffles, I couldn't have said it better myself.

He seems like such a dick, but there has to be a reason why you are still there.

Either way, you deserve better.

Rob-bear said...

For you, I feel both sad and frightened. You are not Bear-ing up very well at all! This is not the way life should be.

If he wanted you to quit work, then he should be making sure you are financially comfortable. And take the occasional trip to see your kids!

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

THIS is the way tht SEE IT!
It eats at him that you have anything of your own and IF HE CAN he will see to it that you have NOTHING and are completely dependant on him.
They love to break us down to a shadow of ourselves.
It's all about...POWER!

(((hugs)))Pat

Rob-bear said...

Female, not all of us are quite that bad.

Hikari