Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Finally...a touch of elegance, and I don't mean Hunter's toenails.

Tomorrow Hunter has an appt. with his podiatrist.  He hasn't been doing what the sheet from the doctor says to do.  (as I also have told him)  At first he did what he was supposed to.  Then I started to do what we were supposed to do.  Then it became that I wasn't wrapping them the right way.  He wanted the tape seam to be in the front or back....I can't recall except that I wasn't doing it right.  You know...I am not even going to get into this.  My point is that I wish I could go to his appt. with him.  I bet you the 3 dollars I have in my purse that somehow he is going to blame me.  Well actually, the new me doesn't give a shit.
I can't be there cuz I have a mammogram with possible ultra-sound.  Is it weird that I find an ulra-sound very soothing?

I have begun to work on making some semblance of order out of the chaos that is my  "home."  I can't continue thinking that Hunter will ever make the repairs he intended to do.  He has a plan, in fact juggles several at a time, but while he destructs in anticipation of "rebuilding", he gets sidetracked into tearing apart something else and that is how it goes.  Now it seems to have come to a screeching halt.  It is either the fact that his health is getting worse-though oddly it doesn't seem to get in the way of his doing things for others-or he has lost interest or feels defeated.  Doesn't matter.  I have to accept it and get on with my life.  So I am going with what I have and arranging it as I can.  If  it means giving up on the built-in bookcases I was supposed to get and putting two old bookcases against the 2  panels  of sheet rock that are against the wall waiting to be used as intended....then that is what I will do!  If it means putting books back on the standard and brackets "bookcases" in the other room-yeah, the one he had me clear off when we had the pod that we filled so he could do the work in the house-I will do it.  My piano is black lacquer and so I thought I would do that room all black and white with accents of red.  My plans are not to be so I will do what I can.  I had curtain that are white with black chandeliers and other elegant designs on it.  I hung those today and I can totally see how gorgeous it could have been.  But.....I will do what I can.  I will do what I can.  I will do what I can and be satisfied.
I promise I will get some pictures up so you can see that I do not exaggerate.  SARA, MY LAMB WHORE LEADER uses the term "Ghetto" to describe certain rooms in her house.  I can see that it totally describes every room in my house.
With Hunter being gone a few weeks in Oct. and all of Novenber, I could paint all of the walls which for some reason he won't let me do.  And I know I could do the plaster repair except the holes (and I use the term lightly) are bigger than my ass.  Waaaaaaayyyyy bigger!!!!!!  The best I can hope for is to perhaps glue some fabric over them.  Hanging mirrors or pictures won't work because some of these are up to the ceiling and.......Hey!  Maybe I could do some type of painting to make it look like an old-world building interior.  My mom was an artist.  Damn!  My dead mom is never around when I need her!
Oh well.  If you can't tell...this actually was an upbeat post.  Yay me!


A Plain Observer said...

Yes, upbeat as upbeat you can beat right now. Find happiness, Middle child. It is there, find it. It hides but damn it, you are strong, get its butt out and grab it

Rob-bear said...

Yup; it was an upbeat post! You're going to be "The Little Engine that Could"! Actually, fixing holes isn't that bad, but as I don't know what the holes in your walls look like, I can't be that helpful.

As for painting, there is no reason why you cannot do that. Takes minimal skill and a chunk of energy. A black and white room with red accents sounds awesome.

You make your home comfortable for you, and let Hunter worry when he gets back.

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

Looks like...WE BOTH HAVE A MISSION. ;0) hee,hee

Good for you that you are looking at things through a different pair of glasses. Rose colored ...to be sure. :0)
You are never far from my thoughts Karen. (((hugs)))Pat

Unknown said...

OMG I have read you since the start and I have to say, this is the most positive post I have ever seen you put up!

I love this post. I love the "I can do this with our without that asshole!" attitude.

I hope with every fiber of my being that you continue down this path. I hope those that read you, encourage you to continue, and not enable you to fall back in to the "I'm defeated" aspect of the situation you are in.

You rocked today's post. I'm ubber impressed!

Yaya said...

I'm with Judy Susan! I love the new attitude, hope it sticks! You can do things on your own middle child, you just need to prove to yourself you can!! :)

Sara Strand said...

If it makes you feel any better, the last homeowner of our house decided that he wasn't going to fix the drywall either. Instead, he shoved newspaper into the holes and then painted the wall (and the newspaper) this ugly purple and called it good.

I'm not even joking. I have to see if we still have pictures of that. If not, I'll be really sad because it was truly amazing.

bj said...

G'morning, MC....hey, girl, wish I lived close...I'd come over and help you do all these things. I say go for the paint...paint does wonders for a room. (speaking of paint, I sure need to start work on my guest room and dread it like the plague..have to remove a wallpaper border and that ain't fun).
I don't know how to repair drywall but bet you can find directions on google. I google everything.
Your chosen color scheme, black and white with red, is thumbs up with me...it's my color scheme throughout my whole house. ;)
Go for it, girl...you're gonna love getting these things done and having a pretty house will make you feel so much better.
Good luck on the mammo....I have mine coming up this month, too.:)
xoxo bj

Furry Bottoms said...

I hear the strength of the woman in you coming out of this post. I know you can definitely do whatever you set your mind to. If he won't fix things, you can do it. You don't have to be forced to live in a place thats broken... if you can fix it, you can do it. You DO live here too. Yay, you're WOMAN and we hear you roar!!

lotta joy said...

I have been fixing and repairing things for 40 years. It depresses me that I'm now 63 and not as physically able as I used to be, but when it needs done, I still climb that ladder and lift that can of paint. If you've been reading my blog, you're aware that I have single-handedly repaired and designed my walls as I wanted. Yes, it took 1 1/2 years. It can't be done overnight, but it will NEVER be done if you keep your ghetto living conditions and wait for someone else to do it.

Over an entire month is ahead of you? Jesus, woman. Go to google and Youtube and learn different approaches to fixing the holes.

And don't feel self-pity. Feel pride in what YOU did.

And don't half-ass the repair. And don't even mention what you're planning, or what you accomplished, to Hunter.


I'm PROOF, and so are a lot of women, that you CAN do it.

If nothing else, send me photos and I'll send you instructions.

Unknown said...

Hey! Sorry I haven't stopped over here yet. And you're so awesome about visiting me. I can relate to the To Do lists. Ugh. Do you live at MY house? b/c it sounds just like mine except for I don't have a piano. Looking forward to getting to know you. ;-) But not in a creeper way. Just saying.