Saturday, September 11, 2010

Rock Me!

God. Rock me to sleep. Wrap me in swaddling clothes and hold me in Your arms. When You lay me down, please don't leave me in the dark because even though I know You are there, I get afraid when I can't see You. I am so little and the world is so big. Loud things are out there and bad people. Can You hold my hand? I love You.

I slept 12 hours last night, waking at quarter to one. Then I tried to go to sleep at 9 pm and was awake for an hour. I don't thin that's ever happened before! So, I got up. Took a xanax cuz I needed to quiet my mind. Watched another addiction,...Criminal Minds and began to miss you guys so I came to see you. I am setting my alarm for 7 am and getting up regardless. And I am gonna do all the stuff I need to or die trying. I love you.

CHEESEBOY - Re-read the final sentence in my last blog as well as the last paragraph and that may help you understand Coffey's comment. Oh,..and no midgets for obvious reasons.

MELISSA - I think I need Extreme Home Makeover.

M.FAITH - Being with my daughter actually makes me sad and anxious. She has so many problems that I can't help her with. The best I am able to do is help keep her sanity above water.

JOE CAP - Sounds like a party!

CB - "Bend over Bitch!" I love it when you talk to me that way!

R. JACOBS - So if I get sick,...you'll be the one to take me to Dr. House, right?

5 comments:

Lydia said...

Hang in there and keep on writing through the wreck of time!

Joe Cap said...

Ok, now I need to know what all this 'stuff' is that you are going to do at 7 AM. These peeks into your life are tantalizing.

Gucci Mama said...

I nearly wept at your first paragraph. I feel you, sister.

Coffeypot said...

I do like that prayer. Is that yours or did you see it somewhere? I rarely go to bed before 2 a.m. and never sleep for 12 hrs (almost never anyway). Do what ya gotta and what ever you want to do. Screw the rest.

Confessions of a Closet Hoarder but you can call me Judy said...

Beautiful prayer.