Bet on me.

I feel better right this minute.  I think it was the two cobs of corn fresh picked today.  The best.  I was also shocked and delighted that all  his  the crap is removed from the top of my Victrola and there was the piano keyboard afghan my friend had crocheted for me.  I have been shaky and weird and either afraid of the puppy or I think more likely....I was "pretending?" I was afraid?  Like fooling myself....for attention?   There's been some talking though nothing special or intimate.  I doubt I will ever trust that he loves me.  I am a fool.  And you just watch me put my heart right back out there.  It's like the stove is hot and yet time and again I touch it just to see if it isn't cool now.  It appears the Village Idiot's wife is now the idiot herself.  Oh.  I see some of you women out there nodding your heads. 

On the medical front.....I had asked the doctor about needed a tetanus shot for the bite.  My daughter-an M.A. who almost finished nursing school and is now working as a Huc in the ER-and my neighbor who was an E.M.T. and now works as an M.A. at a doctor's office have said I need one if I haven't had one recently (8-10 years.)  I called my doctor and got the voice mail of his  M.A.  Left a brief message asking if I'd had a tetanus shot in the last 10 years and explained briefly what had happened.  She returned with a message that she had no record of me having had a tetanus shot and that if I wanted one or wanting to see the doctor, I could call the triage nurse and talk to her.  I did just to find out if I needed a shot.  Left a message and when she got back to me she said she'd ask the doctor and call me right back.  The first time she called.....she called my cell phone.  Apparently she called back on the house phone while I was out.  I was a bit peeved that she never called me back-on my cell-as she made it seem that I would be coming right in if I needed a shot.  So I listened to the message when I got home and here it was her leaving a message that I could come in for a shot if I wanted to.  Are you getting this?  I wasn't asking for a shot....geez.   I will either call and insist the doctor himself call me or I will ignore the whole thing.  After all.....I have bigger fish to fry.  I just got a doctor's order for BMP to check if my kidneys are OK-able to withstand the dye- so I can schedule a CT of my heart. 

I will go to church tomorrow.  There's a cry room which is for moms whose babies are crying in church.  I can go in there when I start crying.  There's a 89% chance I will.  PLACE YOUR BETS HERE!

The silver lining?  Yes indeed....there is one.  Hunter will be gone from Thursday thru the 11th of September!  Yes!!!!!