I just want to shut down like the government. Why not? At least it wouldn't affect anyone. I am tired. I am so very tired of living with someone and yet being alone. Hunter 's plans, attention and concerns are about primarily himself and others including srrangers. My therapist says he's a classic narcisist. He is emotionally distant. And I keep forgetting that. My bad. Every once in awhile I tell him something that you would tell a normal spouse and it ends up biting me in the ass. And every time he either says negative about it, me or my kids. Or....it will definitely be brought up and used against me at some point. He's back to the"just a yes or no answer." He won't even enter into a conversation with me. And there's all the things he tells me to do. It makes my head spin. And he'll say, "Whatever you want. I will tell him and then he will talk it around so that it is his way. He hates when Iask if I can help him. He says, "If I want your help I'll ask for it."
I am who I am. I haven't really changed except for giving up on life. Giving up thinking anything will ever get fixed around here. I have given up in the idea that I will ever be considered a true partner. He won't let me help him. He always compares me to every woman he's ever met. Blah. Blah. Blah.