Monday, February 18, 2013

Colder Than a Witch's Tit!

Hey!  Don't blame me.  That was my mom's saying! 
Almost 50 degrees today and tomorrow a high of 19?  Is that even possible?  Right now it's raining and should turn to just a bit of snow so tomorrow morning will probably be a fun drive.  Fortunately, my appt. with my therapist isn't until 2pm and the roads should be salted by then.

Am trying to upload a picture and as per usual......I can't find it.  Son John and family went up in the mountains where there was snow.  The kids hadn't seen snow in a few years and it was Storm and Tebow's first snow.  Fun.  He sent me pictures and they are lost in space along with what's left of my mind.

Here's a fun fact!  Ever morning -and I do mean every - the minute I awake, I am struck with a wave of anxiety.  It's morning.  I have to face another day.  I don't know why this is.  As I said...it is anxiety, not depression.  And once I have been up and had my Xanax I am usually fine.  I just don't get it.  I dread making dinner.  I hate it!  And it's no big deal really.  I have been making meals since I was 16 - 17.  Maybe I can work out a deal with Hunter.  Hey!  I can hear you guys laughing!  He loves to cook.  And even though he uses a trillion dishes and makes a huge mess....I don't mind cleaning it up.  What say I double it up to 2 blow jobs a day?  Sorry.  I can't really control my mind and so it stands to reason that my mouth should slip up now and again.

Dentist Thursday.  Have a crown I lost last year about this time that he kind fixed. He said it was a temporary fix that would last about a year or two.  Well, it's hurting, which it shouldn't be since it has had a root canal.  I need to have him again just put a band aid on it, so to speak, so that I can go on vacation.  Then once I get back....I guess I will need to have it pulled and get a bridge?  That involves grinding down both teeth on either side to be able to have something for the bridge to attach to.  Good thing my dentist is a hunk, though I think he is a bit messed up like me.  He is a very good dentist though.

Speaking of anxiety......I am having some about our trip but more so about staying at my daughter's house to watch the kids for about 4 days.  And there is absolutely no reason to feel that way.  My anxiety is so fucking random.  I know there are things people have anxiety about.  And I get that.  But me?  Nope.  Nothing normal here.  Look away.

Will try one more time to insert a picture.  Please ignore all the swearing and yelling.

Oh well.  They will show up here when you and I least expect it.  Something to look forward to, right?

See Ya!

6 comments:

Gnetch said...

I'm so sorry about the anxiety. :(

Outcast said...

I hate the cold too Middle Child, life just is nowhere near as good in Winter as it is in Summer and that always depresses me but we're moving out of it and moving out of it soon so try not to worry too much. Best of luck with the appointment too.

Wanda's Wings said...

It's suppose to be cold here tomorrow. From sunshine to a "winter" mix.

Anxiety can be s real pain. I'm gland the Xanax helps.

Let Hunter cook. Sounds like a wonderful idea.

Merlesworld said...

Is it not normal to wake up with some anxiety, you can't be sure whats happened in the night, it's worse when cold not sure why.
Merle........

Vapid Vixen said...

Uck to making dinner! It's always such a hassle and I hate the clean up just as much as the actual preparation.

Yay for takeout.

AiringMyLaundry said...

Yes, it's been cold here as well. It snowed twice this week. Today it's sunny, but still chilly. I am ready for some warmth.

Hikari