Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Gotta get used to it all over again.

Rainy, blowy out.  Hunter got home last night and was even too tired to crash me into the headboard.  I think that's a first.  So it's bull in a china shop again. I moved my new crystal-one of which was Waterford-out of harm's way.  He throws my things on my chair.  I clean it off and he puts more on there.  I go to wash towels and the washer is in use already.  Went to empty the dishwasher and it's,  "Can you wait until I finish in here?"  I can say no or get into an argument but he is unable to "fight" fair, let alone discuss things like a human being.  I take it as a free pass - like I can just stay out of his way.
It's OK.  I am ignoring most of it and doing what I want which is.....Blogging!
Not much else going on here.  Hunter went to the neighbor and got all the gossip.  Am I supposed to be doing that?  How about being on the phone all the time? Spending too much?  These are generally things women do, right?  As I said, just have to deal.  And I'm simply not letting it affect me. Now ask me in about 3 days how that's working out for me (to paraphrase Dr. Phil who is a complete idiot.) 
Therapist tomorrow.  Will let her know that I've felt the way I feel  my whole life, that I can recall.  I actually can't remember much of the past and only know what I know about it from reading my journals.  Too bad I didn't start keeping a journal when I was age one or two!  So what if it would have been crayon scribbles.  At least I would have known if I was a good scribbler or not. 
( Gotta toss in a personal message here. )

BLUE CRAYON JOE!!! 

Gotta go!  I have 9750 posts to read. Muah!

7 comments:

Singedwingangel said...

Ugh I hate when men get pissy.. you just need to come up here with me and let him pout on his own.. We would have a blast.

Coffeypot said...

You let him...

bj said...

Hi, Middle Child..:)
Thanks for stopping by.
Yep, I like apple pie, too, but Mr. Sweet would rather not have his apples SWEET..so, I don't make apple pie too often.:)

The weatherman told us a cold front was moving in but I don't remember him saying it was bringing red sand along with it. I have seen WORSE, more dense sandstorms but never anything like that one. Hope I won't ever see another that bad. :)

Ms. A said...

Sounds like blogging is an escape for you, since you didn't do it while he was gone? Whatever it take to get through, as long as it isn't murder!

Just Be Real said...

Interesting read......

klahanie said...

My friend,
You've gone through some serious crap that is well out of order.
For what it's worth, you do have a therapeutic resource by verbalising your feelings via your thoughtful writing.
They are now showing Dr. Phil on British television. Help me, y'all...
There are times that the blogging community has felt like a lifesaver.
In peace and gentle wishes, your way, Gary

Joe Cap said...

Blue!!! Yeah, I love it!