Tuesday, October 18, 2011

At least I'm consistent! Bonus - poetry past.

Hunter was gone just over a week.  When he goes away, I just sit and watch TV in the kitchen and smoke.  I don't even come up here to blog my day way.  How weird is that?  I do the necessary things, sure.  And there's alot I want to do but.....   Anyway-somehow while I was cleaning the penthouse magazines uh...dust on the shelf under my nightstand, I found my old journals.  Thought It would be fun to re-read them. Very enlightening!  I can quit going to therapy and quit taking meds.  Reason being;  I have apparently been this way MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!  Yes, really.  It is who I am and who I will always be.  And it's ok.  Whew!  Now I can quit trying to fix myself.  What  relief!  "I'm accepted by the One who matters most."

everyone tugs at my clothing.
I will it to tear apart
each one left holding
a tiny ragged portion
of what would have been
a magnificent person
had  I been left whole.
let them wonder
what terrible thing
they have done
uncreated me.

And so it goes here in Pleasantville.  BTW.  Who do I have to sleep around here with to get my spell-check to work?

5 comments:

Coffeypot said...

Now that you have come that realization, what'cha gonna do with it.

Ms. A said...

If it helps, I know how you feel... firsthand.

R. Jacob said...

I do make house calls!

ancient one said...

I found myself reading an old journal today too.. what's up with that? I was not dusting or anything like that.. just saw it sticking up there in the closet and started reading.. I should have dusted and stayed out of the closet :/

Ms. A said...

I just sent you an email. Hope it helps!