Thursday, September 29, 2011

My therapist is going to try to slap the cigarettes right outta my mouth!

Dreary out but the Son shines in my soul.  I asked Hunter if he ever thought of me the way he thinks of others feelings, needs and desires.  I actually made this a much shorter  sentence with no aggression or sarcasm (my super power.)  He said yes, he did.  I left it at that and so I have seen a change for the better since then.  I s'pose we all have a tendency to get complacent and take people/things for granted.

I see my therapist today.  We will be discussing an opps! comment I made two weeks ago.  I said that cigs were my best friend.  We were on the topic of smoking and  I told her that when I had quit for several months awhile ago, I felt like I had lost my best friend.  Can't explain it because it was just a feeling.  A true inexplicable feeling.  She always makes me feel better. She picks up on things that I never would have thought of.  I mean, she says something that comes out of left field-OK, my left field, I guess.  But it's like BAM!  And I feel enlightened.

Then.......I am going to Goodwill, with Hunter's blessing. 
He's at the taxidermists right now and then after dinner he may be going to a friend's house to look at an electrical problem he's having.  Tomorrow he meets a guy he used to work with for lunch.  He is truly a social butterfly and  I am OK with this as long as he keeps me in the loop and cares about me.  I require little maintenance.  I am not that social.  I talk to people in the neighborhood and even in the grocery line.  I just prefer being alone (not the same as lonely) at home.  Not shy or afraid.

I have a friend who told me not to tell people about things I see or hear.  But I am going out on a limb here-I think I saw the sun for a little bit.  Wishful thinking perhaps.  But you are all so non-judgemental that I feel safe telling you.  Getting windy this after noon (about the time of my appt.)  Gusts or 40 to 50 miles an hour.  Wind to last 'till early morning.  I love weather!!!!!
Peace.

10 comments:

Lil Dreamer said...

Funny my BFF said the same thing about quitting smoking. There is definitely some deep psychological connect there. She says cigarettes have always been there for her when she needed them. I guess I can understand that... I think she just needs to find a healthier replacement like tequila.

Ms. A said...

I hear you on the cigarettes, they never disappoint me!

Good for you on the comment to Hunter. That's a start. Now, DON'T STOP... keep that dialog moving.

Wanda's Wings said...

Sounds like progress with Hunter. Good job. It's a work in progress. As far as the smoking it's hard to give up anything that brings comfort. Good luck.

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Coffeypot said...

What kind of BFF is it that will kill you?

Just Be Real said...

Interested to find out how you t. session went yesterday. Blessings.

Toyin O. said...

You are so funny, there is nothing wrong with wanting to be alone, I hope you can find a replacement for your old best friend soon.

bj said...

I like weather, too...always have. Now, I DON'T like the sand storm we just had...I like rainy, dreary days the best of all...next comes snow. Tornado weather is NOT one I like, either.
I feel better on a dark, rainy day than any other time. :))

bj said...

I like weather, too...always have. Now, I DON'T like the sand storm we just had...I like rainy, dreary days the best of all...next comes snow. Tornado weather is NOT one I like, either.
I feel better on a dark, rainy day than any other time. :))

bj said...

I like weather, too...always have. Now, I DON'T like the sand storm we just had...I like rainy, dreary days the best of all...next comes snow. Tornado weather is NOT one I like, either.
I feel better on a dark, rainy day than any other time. :))