Dreary out but the Son shines in my soul. I asked Hunter if he ever thought of me the way he thinks of others feelings, needs and desires. I actually made this a much shorter sentence with no aggression or sarcasm (my super power.) He said yes, he did. I left it at that and so I have seen a change for the better since then. I s'pose we all have a tendency to get complacent and take people/things for granted.
I see my therapist today. We will be discussing an opps! comment I made two weeks ago. I said that cigs were my best friend. We were on the topic of smoking and I told her that when I had quit for several months awhile ago, I felt like I had lost my best friend. Can't explain it because it was just a feeling. A true inexplicable feeling. She always makes me feel better. She picks up on things that I never would have thought of. I mean, she says something that comes out of left field-OK, my left field, I guess. But it's like BAM! And I feel enlightened.
Then.......I am going to Goodwill, with Hunter's blessing.
He's at the taxidermists right now and then after dinner he may be going to a friend's house to look at an electrical problem he's having. Tomorrow he meets a guy he used to work with for lunch. He is truly a social butterfly and I am OK with this as long as he keeps me in the loop and cares about me. I require little maintenance. I am not that social. I talk to people in the neighborhood and even in the grocery line. I just prefer being alone (not the same as lonely) at home. Not shy or afraid.
I have a friend who told me not to tell people about things I see or hear. But I am going out on a limb here-I think I saw the sun for a little bit. Wishful thinking perhaps. But you are all so non-judgemental that I feel safe telling you. Getting windy this after noon (about the time of my appt.) Gusts or 40 to 50 miles an hour. Wind to last 'till early morning. I love weather!!!!!