Tuesday, March 1, 2011

I don't want to play today.

I just don't want to be a part of life today. It seems like too much effort. I hate to grocery shop. I'm doing laundry but don't want to. Nothing bad is happening to warrant my feelings. I just want to sleep to escape. I did sleep good last night. So,...what's the deal? I have a good life yet my moods are random and seemingly out of my control. Sometimes I wonder who lives inside me. It is not the me I think I am. I know I don't show on the outside who I am on the inside. It's not that I am a poser. I am open and honest and yet,.... Why the depression and/or lack of interest. I don't want to clean. I don't even want to read a book or watch TV. Or shop for fun. I just don't want to play today.

12 comments:

My Black Fog said...

Depression is a chemical imbalance, luv,.... You don't have any control over it so there won't be answers to "why".
I feel for you,...
((hugs))

KittyCat said...

I have those days. Dont feel guilty just do NOTHING. everyone deserve a day off from life.

Coffeypot said...

Then don't. Go take your nap. Then get your ass outside and get some fresh air.

Sairs said...

I have days like this often, especially recently. I had a day like this two days ago where I cried and slept all day long. Andy was beside himself with worry about me. I hope you do start to feel better tomorrow and that you can do the things that you want to do then.
*hugs*
Sarah

Copyboy said...

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On My Soapbox said...

It's a "blah" day for me, too. I should be job hunting, but.... Well, I'll get back to it soon enough. I always do.

Oilfield Trash said...

You are not alone, I have those types of days all the time.

Jimmy said...

I don't have an answer for this one either, I feel this way myself at times and wish it would just go away.

Red Shoes said...

I like the comments you've received... I'm afraid I've been a bit down here as of late myself...

Just acknowledge it... let it pass... you shall be fine...

~shoes~

Comeca Jones said...

I too am middle child and guess what I am 39 and that trip still seems to be goin on. Its part of the middle child syndrome I guess.lol The really good thing is the older I get the fewer they are.(the sad times I mean)Thanks for stoppin by my blog.Cheer up!(Easier said than done I know)

Deanna said...

I know how you feel I am like this all the time if not everyday. It was like reading something I wrote reading your post.

I found you from Rockin Mama hope thats okay :)

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~Onreeone~ said...

I have those days more often than I like to admit. For me though I'm just bored with the mundane living life day to day. Clean, Cook, Laundry, blah blah blah. Winter doesn't help this either. However, trying to be the "optimist" that I'm naturally NOT, I give in and ride it out. When the sun shines I will move, but I will not feel GUILTY any longer for being me. Wait- this isn't about me, it's about you...Sorry, but just know(your not alone). I wanna go skydiving~