Tuesday, March 1, 2011
I don't want to play today.
I just don't want to be a part of life today. It seems like too much effort. I hate to grocery shop. I'm doing laundry but don't want to. Nothing bad is happening to warrant my feelings. I just want to sleep to escape. I did sleep good last night. So,...what's the deal? I have a good life yet my moods are random and seemingly out of my control. Sometimes I wonder who lives inside me. It is not the me I think I am. I know I don't show on the outside who I am on the inside. It's not that I am a poser. I am open and honest and yet,.... Why the depression and/or lack of interest. I don't want to clean. I don't even want to read a book or watch TV. Or shop for fun. I just don't want to play today.