Yeah, loved the movie but no, this is different. I felt pretty good yesterday though I didn't sleep enough. (my fault) I got up at 5am to go out to the hunt club with The Hunter so we could walk around in the fields with Belle. Anyway, I had talked to my daughter the day before and they don't even have money for gas. She's in deep shit but there's nothing I can do. We've bailed them out to the tune of,......you don't even want to know how much $$$$. I have offered sound advice over and over-when asked-and none taken and the hole they live in gets deeper and deeper because of it. They got cell phones for all the kids at Christmas, they bought a big TV. They got an xbox and games a recently a hampster. I feel terrible but am learning how to handle it, through the help of my therapist. In fact I saw her yesterday and she was proud of how well I was doing.
And then,.....I received an email that shredded my heart. It was simple. My 16 yr. old Grandson Cain-the one who is super intelligent, has been taking a college class for two years now, is in the AP program, was born with only one lung and used to throw-up due to his narrow trachea and phlegm when he was a toddler and never cried when he did it, just accepting this as a part of his life-e-mailed one sentence. It said, "We have no money."
You know this broke my heart. I read it and started crying which immediatly turned into gulping sobs. The tears came straight from my heart. He is the one who really touches me. I e-mailed back and I hope he can understand. I assume he uses his girlfriends computer. What do I do? What do I say?
My kids have to figure this out for themselves. I cannot give them more of our money. We need to live too. Had they taken even half of our advice,...... My kids are not kids. By the time I was their age, I had been through a divorce, and was widowed. I can't help them and I shouldn't. But it breaks my heart just the same.
Yeah,....my good mood? Gone in 60 seconds.