Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I'm not crazy, I'm just good at loving.

COFFYPOT - Believe it or not, I do have one gun and damned if it isn't a Smith & Wesson 38 Special!

JOE - You can call me a wench or even a wrench. I have been called so much worse. Remember who I am married to. Hey. A wrench isn't so bad,...you put your hand on it and kind of move it up and down,...oooo, did I say that out loud? Sorry.

TO ALL THE REST OF YOU WHO COMMENTED - I can't thank you enough. I think I just need people to see what I'm talking about. It's like, it is so wrong that it must either be a nightmare or a Stephen King after school special. My therapist has helped me immensely. I am becoming strong. I love Chuck because someone needs to. I ignore the fact that I am not a priority on his list. I'm just glad I finally made the list, you know? He has low self esteem and feels out of control even more so now that his health is getting worse. I could go into this but I won't. I really know him. I know he needs me. I know he doesn't know how to love because he was never taught this. Perhaps one day, before he dies, he will "get it". He'll see how easily I love and he'll go, "OMG! I never realized it was so easy."



In the mean time, as I was getting together all the stuff to wash and wax the vehicles after he mentioned it again, he turns around and says it would take me too long so I should just run them through the car wash. Like my profile says,...he runs hot and cold and back and forth. I just do my best not to get sucked into it. By the way,....if you met him, you would really like him. He listens and does and gives and only someone who gets it would see through him. He lacks confidence and so he does this false bravado thing. Blah - GET OFF THIS SUBJECT MIDDLECHILD!!!!!!!

8 comments:

peedee said...

You are good at loving. I need to find the male version of you.
xoxo

Southern Sage said...

I feel for Chuck, I too lack confidence.

Coffeypot said...

The other good thing about a wrench...it can be used to tighten some nuts. The improtant thing is for you to KNOW who you are, then you can KNOW who Chuck is. You first. Then you can be comfortable with everything else. I think he is a fool.

The Queen said...

If you throw a wrench in a hot fire and remold it, you can get a horse shoe.. for luck..

In the Pink said...

My man also does a great 'false bravado', at times it is funny and other times it pisses me off. You know what I mean? Just drop the wall man. Anyhow, you should see my car, I pride myself in never washing it. Unless you count when it rains.

Vic said...

I was joking with my sister over text yesterday because she said her husband was being an ass. I wrote we should get the insurance policy and kill em....she said fuck the ins. policy just stab em in the fucking legs...I said I had already stabbed and burned....I'm outta options....hahaha..:) We love em...we fight, we make up, we are with these men for a reason...i hope you know i love ya and like to joke alot...:) kisses

Joe Cap said...

Ha, maybe I need MY loose nut tightened! If I bring my car over and you wax it, I will pay you more than what the car detail places would charge.

Linda Medrano said...

Child, we all do what we do for a wide range of reasons. Some of those reasons are not even that clear to us. I'm sorry your husband beats you down emotionally. I don't believe that's okay. I feel sorry for Chuck because he's got health problems. Just don't let anyone treat you badly, Dear.