She's gone.

We finally had Belle put to sleep.  It was time. Hunter took it pretty well.  He decided at the last minute to stay in the room with me when they put her down.  He was amazed at how fast and painless it was.  So the grieving will take time but we will be ok.  There will always be occasions where something occurs that reminds us of her, but eventually we will be left with only good memories.

We just had a nasty storm go through here.  I was sure that lightening was going to fly in the window and zap me as I sit here upstairs with no blinds on the windows and not much on.  Yeah I need to do laundry.  have been putting that off as well as everything else.

Well....it's 11PM.  I have eaten 5 "fun-sized" caramel Milky Way bars.  S'pose I should go have a sandwich or maybe just some cigs and coffee.  Hey!  I just remembered....there's donuts!!!!  I am not supposed to eat this shit cuz I have type II diabetes.  Yeah, I will just have coffee.  That has Splenda in it and will cancel out the sugar, right?