Almost had a chance and today I think I have the balls to go ahead anyway!

Hunter was gone for several hours and I had planned to make use of the fact that I had the kitchen and bathroom to myself.  I got several things done and had begun to clear the table so I could clean the fan, change the table cloth.  The usual.  Had half the things off the table-there was much to clear off as I am not a hoarder we had a bit too much stuff on there.  I was half-way done and Hunter comes home.  Shit.  He's like, "Oh.  Are you cleaning off the table? "  Really?  This is something he tells me to do and by the time I get around to it, he has already done it having put everything of mine in a bag or box.  Pisses me off.  So, he gets the mail and says he had planned to sit and go through the mail.  Fine, I left and came up here.  That was the wrong thing to do.  Why do I always acquiesce to his desires?  Oddly, assertiveness is not in my genetic make-up and so, I will have to learn it.  I am someone and I can't keep letting him-or others-keep walking all over me.  Can you say doormat?  I will go back downstairs in a minute and start clearing off the table in the living room.  He was excited about that because he plans to keep all of his friend's wives pepper plants on it to winter over-they go south for the winter.  He gives all this "kindness"-and yes, I know he does these things so that others like him-but cares not for what I might need or want.  I will use the table as a clean space to do crafts or whatever I choose!  If he insists on the plants, I want to have the balls to tell him to stick them up his ass.  Of course, being the kind-hearted girl that I am....I will offer to stick them up his ass for him.  And therefore, watch for a future post where I complain about the fact that these plants are all over my house.  You do know that when I met him, my house was totally paid for, right?  Yes, two mortgages later my house has gone down in value to the point that it is worth about as much as the mortgage.  He promised me twice that he would pay them off. No one to blame but myself.
But I have been feeling so much better lately despite the fact that it has been cloudy and rainy for several days now.  You will think me even weirder than usual when I tell you the reason.  I have been watching Dancing with the Stars and the one guy had been seriously injured/burned in the war.  Then he was/is? on General Hospital.  He has the most upbeat, happy amazing attitude EVER!  He is an inspiration to me.  Peace-out!