And he cries.

This is terrible!  I have had to deal with alot of deaths so why is this so hard?  The Hunter has trouble sleeping and cries a bit here and there.  I hate to see him is so much pain.  And there is nothing I can do for him but share his pain. A few time he talks aloud, "What did I do to you? Did I cause this?"  I remind him that he did nothing but give her a wonderful life.  We cancelled the trip to his friends farm because the vet said it would be too wearing on Belle.  I also changed my plans to go see my son in Vegas.  Right now, the ball is in my daughter's court.  My son, his wife and I have offered to fly the 3 grandkids to Vegas.  She has to talk to her husband and will let me know.  Then she talks about how she and I should go to Vegas in a few months, but to stay in a hotel and go to the shows and play the slots, etc.  I get this, I really do but.....she doesn't really have any contact with him and seems so selfish. Example?  When my son-her only sibling-had brain surgery, she got together enough money -with my help- to stay in a motel with her kids and they went swimming and out to eat, etc.  She treated it as a vacation, and even said as much.  I mean, she talked much more about the "vacation" part than her brothers life-threatening surgery.  On the other hand, she cries and keeps telling me to take care of The Hunter because she knows how badly this will hurt him, to lose his dog.  I guess I am not explaining this very well.  All I can say is, I am really taken aback at how hard this is.