Friday, October 12, 2012

At least I took a shower.

I felt better yesterday having had no sleep the night before than I feel today.  My sleep last night was as fragmented as my dreams.  I have been watching TV all day.  Hmmm.  No.  I don't think you get it.  I have watched TV for 15 hours so far and I have 4.5 hours to go.

My candle sells more like root beer than root beer does!

Perhaps the fiction on TV has caused me to wonder if real love exists.  I am not talking not just about married love but all kinds of relationships whether it be with a friend, sister, parent or people in a group.  REAL love.  Not perfect but constant.  Someone who is always, always there for you.  Someone who gets you and knows your heart.  I sometimes wish I were an alcoholic so I could go to those meetings and the warmth and acceptance......Is it  Norman Rockwell thoughts I am having?  Or do people really have such relationships.

Tomorrow will be much warmer so I can open up the whole house and hopefully get the rest of those boards painted.

Yeah.  I know.  Can you spell loser?  Thaaaaaat's right - m-i-d-d-l-e-c-h-i-l-d.


Jimmy said...

Norman Rockwell thoughts and people can actually have relationships like this, you are having both :)

Rob-bear said...

People who are there for you, and you can count on, are so important for all of us. And yes, they do exist. You might be surprised how many there are.

Lydia said...

You are a deep thinker and certainly no loser! Finding people who truly "get" you is indeed difficult. That's why it is so wonderful when it happens!

Outcast said...

You're definitely not a loser Middle Child, I'm sure of that already. Everyone has days where they just want to do nothing and watch television so don't worry about that too much. I do think those kind of fictional relationships may exist in real life but not for sustained everlasting periods of time and it takes a very specific type of couple for it to work I guess. Hopefully tomorrow's a better day.

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

There are friends and "friends".
A true friend comes around sometimes only once in a lifetime and sometimes not at all.
I count myself amongst the lucky to have had one "true friend."
Try not to be so hard on yourself. We all are imperfect. Your life is every bit as important as any one elses. Relationships take work....some more than others. It goes without saying that we both have known our share of heartaches. Life's lessons are sometimes hard to understand.
When I have been at my lowest,I would think of all the mothers that have children in a cancer ward ( suffering as they watched their child suffer) and that would snap me back out of my funk and make me appreciate my life even if it was sucky.There but for the grace of God went I. That parent would gladly change places with me, I'd think to myself.
YOU are SPECIAL to me. I CARE! (((hugs)))Pat

Wanda's Wings said...

I do believe in real love.I have never had marital love even having been married for 20 years. I have found a couple of friends that love me no mater what. I also love my children enough to die for them. There is love! Never give up on that.

Gina Gao said...

I believe that true love really exist. Even though I have been disappointed in the past, I still believe in it.

Anonymous said...

I hate those long TV sessions. HATE HATE HATE THEM!!! But I do it on occasion to. I do hope your sleep evens out and all that good stuff.

Anyhow, about's all chemical and spiritual (not religious mind you). Did you know that the female becomes addicted to the male pheromones after he has ejaculated into her? (stay with me here) So even though your inner spiritual needs are not being met your chemical body still recognizes the Hunter as a viable love. Where am I going with this IDK? But maybe it will make you smile or blush. Have a better tomorrow. :)

Just Be Real said...

Hugs to you and peaceful rest.