Thursday, April 19, 2012

Tebow 3:16

Forgive the scribbled writing.  For some reason I am all shaky.  Meadow's surgery went well.  My grandkids are very lucky.  There is always so much support for them whether for sports or concerts or hospital stuff.  I think the nurse in the room Meadow was in was shocked when she walked in and saw me, her mom and dad, her other grandma and her grandpa (me ex.)  It was out patient so she got to go home.  I felt very left out as I often do.  We all sit together at these things and I feel invisible.  I know it is merely my own perception.  We all talk and joke and stuff but,........I just don't seem to "fit" in. Why do I feel this way?   I see my psyc. for meds.  I see my therapist.  I go to my G.P. regularly and even go to the dentist every 6 months.  Yet.  Yet.  I feel like I should be put into a hospital and they should keep me there until I feel not just normal, but happy!  Where's Dr. House when you need him.  All my needs are met.  I have family and acquaintances.  Kind of friends but not like I think they should be.  I don't mean that they aren't being good friends but it's more like I once again feel different.   No one is mean.  I just......never mind. I can't explain and it sounds too much complaining which isn't what I mean to be doing.

Anyway.....GOOD NEWS!!!!!  I have a new grand-puppy!  She is a Rottweiler/Bull Mastiff mix.  My son and his family already have a Puggle and they live with DIL's  sister who has 6 dogs herself.  That's 8 dogs total.  Oh. I forgot to tell you her name.  They named her Tebow.  She was born on March 3rd.  That's right 3:16.  I think that's the coolest thing ever!!!!

That news alone was enough to lift my spirits.  Again Hunter is gone and again I do nothing.  I do see my GP tomorrow for some test results.  Anybody want to mow my lawn and do my laundry?  Oh.  And change my sheets and do the dishes?  In fact if anyone would like to bath me and wrap me in a warm blankie........

5 comments:

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

Ohhhhhhhh I do so understand you.
(((hugs)))Pat

Ms. A said...

Yep, I'm different, too. I know what you mean.

Kristy said...

Read a nice book and snuggle in your covers while you read it. I also understand how you feel. I often don't seem to fit anywhere.

R. Jacob said...

If it was born on 3:14 you could have named it Pi!

laurie @ bargain hunting said...

I know what you're talking about. Many times, I feel different too, and then I remind myself that being different is a good thing. There are too many people out there who are trying to be like everyone else. I try to embrace my different self (and most of the time, I am able to). Hang in there. laurie