Beautiful weather! Windy yesterday which I loved. I actually felt good today. I think it was because I went to bed at 10:30. I know, right? Feels like apple orchard time. Soon.
Chuck calls periodically. He is still at the farm, doing things for everyone else but us. I'm used to it. Had one of my crying things yest. for no discernable reason. He's like,.."You cryin'?" I lie and say no. We talked a bit and he says (cuz by then he knows I'm crying) go outside, weed the garden. Really? Like that would help. Sometimes I just have days like that. I don't know if I miss him or am mad at him or there's something weird deep down inside of me. (different than the weird that is right out in the open!) Kind of like a pop quiz or a sudden shower.
But I am ok today. I bought a crystal decanter and plan to keep Jack Daniels in it on a tray on the counter, along with a couple crystal shot glasses. Why mess with a mixed drink when you can just chug it. Yeah, I'm lazy that way. My dad, mom, sisters and Chuck were/are heavy drinkers and I am tired of being different.
Lots of good comments on my last post! Thank-you so much. I think I stayed up that night 'till 4 AM. Then I only slept 5&1/2 hours. I don't have trouble sleeping. Ever! What I mean to say is that I wish it was ok with society, my husband whoever, that I sleep day and night, thus avoiding life. I see no purpose to living. I don't do anyone any good. I would not be missed. this is not a cry for help, I have had depression for a long time so,....