So I finally get a call back from my man. We are talking but OH-NO! He has to go cuz someone's at the door. Um,...he can't answer the door with a phone to his ear? And really, who could possibly be more important that me? Whatever. He's out of my hair for awhile and I am grateful. Didn't accomplish anything except mowing but that was the only thing that HAD to be done. Just trying to straighten myself out and get back to "normal".
As far as strength goes - to respond to a blog comment - I have had alot of practice. My mom died when I was 17. Divorce, death of a cheating spouse, death of a husband and oh, yeah,....a lot of putting my feelings on hold. I have a big storage place inside of me where I keep all the grief and shit. I also give it up to God. He is the one Who holds me together. Having good relationships with people who you hold in your heart also makes it easier to let go. Then there's the love you have that makes you want them to be happy and/or pain free, etc.
I feel like I am rambling and not making much sense. I know I have more processing to do regarding my son's move. I'll get there. He's so happy. They all are and as a mom, that's my greatest joy!!!
Beginning of a new month. Time to delete some old posts.