HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Wishing you many Blessings in 2014.

I am at my daughter's hoping not to get snowed in tomorrow.  I made it out here ok but it had only begun to snow.  Have been crying a lot lately.   I guess you'd say they are good cries but still. ....everyone is sleepy here looks like I might be the only one who stays up  to be sure the New Year shows up.

I love going to the group therapy at the hospital.   I wish I could just keep going there.  It's like I have finally found "my" people.  But I also just got a.bill for over $1000 and that won't fly.  I will take it in to group and they will get it all straightened out.   I think I am about done with group anyway.   Too bad.  Oh I have learned a lot and Dr added Abilify which has made a big difference!

Husband leaves in a few days and will be gone for at least a month. Yes hunting.  I will try to be happy and participate in life this year.  Not a resolution but just something I hope to work on.  And if I could just crack the spine on my Bible. ...it should be a good year.

BTW-The boy in my previous post is none other than Hunter.   And tell me that doesn't look like the REAL Santa Clause.

You can't rake snow.

Oh snap.  And yard waste gets picked up Wednesday morning.

 No problem.  We still have 2 more weeks of pick up.

Besides,  I LOVE SNOW!!!!

 

 

 

Hunter is off hunting for the month.  He really hasn't been feeling well lately.

But at least he's taking his medicine.

 

 

I am too tired depressed lazy to blog or do laundry or empty the dishwasher or anything.  I did get groceries but feel like it's too much trouble to put together a salad.  A salad people.  Are you kidding me?????   I blame the fact that it's too cold or too dark or....well anything I can think of.

 

Really, there is nothing wrong with me.  Oh I know laziness is not normal behavior.  But then....we all know I am kind of a freak.

All I do is whine.  Seriously.  How hard is it to get  off my ass and put one foot in front of the other and actually do something.  What's next?  Depends?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Can bearly fit anything else in the garage!

I had a talk with Cain and all is well.  I understand now.  And yes....he is questioning all things.  And we are all praying that he becomes a believer....the tattoo will still be appropriate as he will always be stiving to learn.  Thank-you for all your comments.  This was a hard one for me and I was comforted my your words.

On to the weather.  Snow on April 19th in Northern Illinois?  Lots of rain and flooding.  We are by the Fox River but way up the hill and are in no danger.  My daughter lives a stone's throw away from the Rock River and I am concerned.  She is not.  I think she has had so much crap happen in her life that she just ducks and hope it goes right over.

Hunter leaves Monday to Hunt Turkey in Northern Wi. at his friends farm.  At first it was going to be for 11 days.  Now I heard 4.  Big difference!  I am hoping 11 days and here is why.  And this will probably sound really lame to you but I am honest enough to admit the truth - I get to watch TV!  I grew up on a tv watching family and my ex-husband and my late husband and well....Hunter used to comment about what he called my "constantly watching tv..".    Turns out that he is the one who watches it all the time.  As you know....we are down to one little tv in the kitchen.  And he is always in there and he watches everything I do not.  Ever the good wife....I try to get interested but here's the rub.  I CAN'T STAND CHANNEL FLIPPING!!!!!

So anyway.....let's hope he is gone for 11 days although....well, do turkeys like to play in snow?
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This is one of two that we have in our garage.  Long story that pisses me off but I will keep it simple here.....who would want a stuffed bear if they didn't kill it?  Isn't that like buying a trophey that you didn't earn?

Colder Than a Witch's Tit!

Hey!  Don't blame me.  That was my mom's saying! 
Almost 50 degrees today and tomorrow a high of 19?  Is that even possible?  Right now it's raining and should turn to just a bit of snow so tomorrow morning will probably be a fun drive.  Fortunately, my appt. with my therapist isn't until 2pm and the roads should be salted by then.

Am trying to upload a picture and as per usual......I can't find it.  Son John and family went up in the mountains where there was snow.  The kids hadn't seen snow in a few years and it was Storm and Tebow's first snow.  Fun.  He sent me pictures and they are lost in space along with what's left of my mind.

Here's a fun fact!  Ever morning -and I do mean every - the minute I awake, I am struck with a wave of anxiety.  It's morning.  I have to face another day.  I don't know why this is.  As I said...it is anxiety, not depression.  And once I have been up and had my Xanax I am usually fine.  I just don't get it.  I dread making dinner.  I hate it!  And it's no big deal really.  I have been making meals since I was 16 - 17.  Maybe I can work out a deal with Hunter.  Hey!  I can hear you guys laughing!  He loves to cook.  And even though he uses a trillion dishes and makes a huge mess....I don't mind cleaning it up.  What say I double it up to 2 blow jobs a day?  Sorry.  I can't really control my mind and so it stands to reason that my mouth should slip up now and again.

Dentist Thursday.  Have a crown I lost last year about this time that he kind fixed. He said it was a temporary fix that would last about a year or two.  Well, it's hurting, which it shouldn't be since it has had a root canal.  I need to have him again just put a band aid on it, so to speak, so that I can go on vacation.  Then once I get back....I guess I will need to have it pulled and get a bridge?  That involves grinding down both teeth on either side to be able to have something for the bridge to attach to.  Good thing my dentist is a hunk, though I think he is a bit messed up like me.  He is a very good dentist though.

Speaking of anxiety......I am having some about our trip but more so about staying at my daughter's house to watch the kids for about 4 days.  And there is absolutely no reason to feel that way.  My anxiety is so fucking random.  I know there are things people have anxiety about.  And I get that.  But me?  Nope.  Nothing normal here.  Look away.

Will try one more time to insert a picture.  Please ignore all the swearing and yelling.

Oh well.  They will show up here when you and I least expect it.  Something to look forward to, right?

See Ya!

Jennifer Aniston stinks!

What a stupid blogger!  You know who I am.  Er...well....truth is good, right?  So you remember the last time I got my hair done?  Yeah, me neither.  But so I bought that perfume - just because I kinda like Jennifer even though she has been portrayed as extremely needy and desperate. Error #1 -I  bought this at the salon where I get my hair done.   I stumbled upon it yesterday as I was looking for something.  Error #2  -  There wasn't a tester.  Error #3 - I failed to take a moment to wonder why it was the only perfume there.  Error #4 - I spent $39 on a scent unknown.
Consequently, I am stuck with a perfume that smells like moth balls.  MOTH BALLS I SAY!!!!!
Let's try to be positive here.  At least it is long lasting.  Like.......... it doesn't even wash off.  Oh wait!  I'll be right back!
                    Nope, Oxy-clean doesn't work either.  Lesson learned.

SNOW!  We got our first snow!  So what that it only covers the roof and top of car.  It is snow dammit!  It counts and I am excited.  Oh....leave me alone.  Then my brain goes into warp speed, though briefly, thinking.....what if it is snowing when we have to go to the airport?  It is about an hour and a half north of here.  Could be alot snowier there.  But then my brain quickly went back to normal realizing that it probably won't even be snowing that day.

Daughter-in-law called to "warn" me about Cami's behavior.  (Our 7 yr. old Grand Daughter.)  Oh crap.  Now what?  There's always something  going  on there.  Like 3 days ago -remember, 8 dogs live there too - one of the Mastiffs attacked Harley - one of the Chihuahuas.   This is the dog that had been attacked by one of the other Mastiffs and was taken to the vet and had to be treated.  They kept him kenneled at home after that.  This time, while all the dogs were taken out back to do their last "business" before bedtime, Storm attacked Harley and while they rushed him to the vet, there was no hope and he had to be put down.  Makes me sick to even think about it.   Oh.....back to Cami.  Apparently she is a smart mouth and it sounds like it is serious.  If she does it to me.....well while I am normally able to put an instant stop to this with the other Grandkids.....it seems as though I will not have much luck with Cami.  I mean, for Jennifer to call and warn me tells me the severity of the situation.  We shall see.

Laundry time!