Well, yeah. That too. Finally! I guess if you are married to an "old" man and keep him waiting long enough.......he will um...well he....let's just say that things work as they should.
But no. I am talking about an all day marathon of Criminal Minds! And since Chuck left with Maggie, I get to watch our little-and currently only-TV in the kitchen. Yay!
Chuck went to bed at 8pm because he likes to leave early in the morning. I had taken a nap from 4pm - 8pm because I only slept 5 hours the night before. BTW, whenever I talk about sleeping short hours....it is my own doing. I chose to stay up. Anyway, I stayed up a couple hours knowing he sleeps better without me even though he says I do not bother him. I was going to go to bed when he woke up but decided to help him get on the road. A fresh pot of coffee and....how could I resist. By then it was only about 4 hours until I would normally take my morning meds. So I thought I would stay up and go to sleep after taking them. I went to bed at 7am and when I woke up, I saw that I hadn't taken my pills. What a stupid!
I don't hear much from my daughter. I contact and offer but don't push. My 13 year old grand daughter is now exhibiting the same behavior that my daughter did when she was about that age. In fact Dawn still feels like that sometimes. Meadow says she is often shaking and dizzy. And my son called me to let me know he's been having more headaches and they are more painful. He is not a complainer at all. But since he is the one with the brain tumor....he pays attention to these things now. He said he may or may not see a doctor. He is smart and will do what he needs to. He is the one who calls just to see how I am.
Chuck has called me twice since he left this morning. I wish he wouldn't drive straight through.
Speaking of driving....I am pretty sure we are not renting a place in Florida this year. As always he waited until it was too late. But I am glad. We will just ramble around here and there, perhaps starting with North Carolina and going to Florida from there. Will see his son and family in Orlando and then go down to Cape Coral where we used to have our condo. Maybe the Keys....just the kind of trip I really wanted. No. I mean for real. No pressure. No time tables. Just he and I and Maggie and the muzzle I am going to gift her with. Ha!
Peace & love.
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Monday, January 14, 2013
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Eviction Complete.
Hello!!!!! I just messed around and some how I fixed it. Yeah, I know I must have screwed it up in the first place but shit! Things have sucked so bad here. You are my people and I have been lost without you!!!!! You can only tell your real life friends so much before their eyes glaze over.
First lets get the obvious over with. Hunter is never there when I really need him. I mean NEED!
I am not a drama queen by any stretch of the imagination. Yeah I am a bit moody and too sensitive and stupid for marrying Hunter. But how quick I forgive andtry forget.
He wasn't in my life when several bad things happened but he was around when.........
My father died. I had to many responsibilities but I go into this "mode" that allows me to do what I need to do. Yes, I can deal. I am a big girl. But HE DIDN'T ATTEND MY DAD'S FUNERAL! He was leaving to go out west hunting the day before the funeral. Then he's telling people my dad told him to go. That isn't just bullshit, but it is the biggest pile at the very top!
Then came MY SON'S BRAIN TUMOR. He was all into the "Your family sucks" mode. So I didn't tell him because I didn't need the extra stress. For awhile I got away with it by telling him that I was taking Susan to the hospital for tests and stuff. Finally I had to come clean cuz he read my diary. I told him to sit down and not interrupt me. Well you know he didn't even let me finish my sentence without trying to take over the conversation. I told him to sit down and just listen..He did until I got to about the second sentence. I told him that again that he needs to just LISTEN or I wouldn't tell him. So he did and I did. You must know how this thing with my son devastated me. And what did Hunter do? He said he would support me as far as allowing me to but gas to go back and forth to the hospital and such. But that is all. He didn't want to talk about it or be supportive and he even made it sound like he was so helpful to me. He does this in all situations including my dad's funeral. He would tell people that my dad told him to go hunting to alleviate his own guilt obviously.
And now we have MY DAUGHTER'S EVICTION. I talked to my daughter on Monday about what time to come over to help pack and stuff. Then I asked about the following day. Asked if I should cancel my appt. with my therapist. She said yeah, if you can. So I came inside to call the therapist and Hunter heard my conversation when I called about cancelling. My therapist knows me well and she really impressed upon me that I needed to keep my appt. My daughter understood completely and even agreed. Right after I hung up with the therapist......Hunter went ballistic. Saying Mary was a charleton and was just "fattening her couffers " I told him she was rich and could buy him ten times over. I just listened to him blather on without responding or reacting to him. When he finally got done listening to himself I gathered my things and headed out to my daughter's. I just had to be strong for my daughter and her family without any comfort of my own when I got home. I have been a total mess inside. I think I may have flipped out a bit when I was driving home around one AM. Was at Dawn's at nine am or so. Everyone was sleeping except her husband who was out faxing and doing what he was told to do to get the eviction postponed until they could move into their new place the end of August. I was sitting on their porch smoking and drinking coffee 'till he got home. The sheriff came exactly at ten am and Jer showed him the lease papers for the new place and explained about the fax and what he was told. The sheriff made a call and there was nothing they could do. The eviction was to proceed. Jer told me to go in and wake up everybody. Then I told them about the eviction and that they needed to get dressed and gather their most valuable things and put them in our cars. Dawn started vomiting immediatley and Meadow was crying and the boys were well, the way boys are, I guess. The sheriff told us a crew would be here to remove all their belongings and set them in the yard. He said that it would take them about an hour. Jer and I both almost laughed our loud at that. I will say that the sheriff was very kind. I explained what Dawn was doing and he said I needed to stay with her to be sure she was alright and that she didn't harm herself. We got to packing as fast as we could. The crew was very kind, asking what room they would prefer us to start in, etc. Once they were done, Jer got a U-Haul and Cain called a bunch of his friends and Dawn and Jer's friends came and some of Jer's family. We finished just after dark and right as a couple rain drops started falling. They rented a hotel room after failing to get ahold of Dawns dad. They will go to front desk tomorrow to see if they can rent another room for a week or so,
In the mean time,.....Hunter isn't talking or acknowledging me and I am fine with that. I have decided that when he gets the charge card bill with cigs and gas on it.....and he will yell and threaten me....I will tell him not to worry. I have things figured out. He owes me $25,000 and I will start deducting the charges from that. Oh, I am sure he will have something to say about that but.......that's what I will do. He will have to take the card right out of my wallet cuz I sure as hell won't give it to him. And if he starts in about what a bad housewife I am...I will ignore him. He can leave me if he wants.
First lets get the obvious over with. Hunter is never there when I really need him. I mean NEED!
I am not a drama queen by any stretch of the imagination. Yeah I am a bit moody and too sensitive and stupid for marrying Hunter. But how quick I forgive and
He wasn't in my life when several bad things happened but he was around when.........
My father died. I had to many responsibilities but I go into this "mode" that allows me to do what I need to do. Yes, I can deal. I am a big girl. But HE DIDN'T ATTEND MY DAD'S FUNERAL! He was leaving to go out west hunting the day before the funeral. Then he's telling people my dad told him to go. That isn't just bullshit, but it is the biggest pile at the very top!
Then came MY SON'S BRAIN TUMOR. He was all into the "Your family sucks" mode. So I didn't tell him because I didn't need the extra stress. For awhile I got away with it by telling him that I was taking Susan to the hospital for tests and stuff. Finally I had to come clean cuz he read my diary. I told him to sit down and not interrupt me. Well you know he didn't even let me finish my sentence without trying to take over the conversation. I told him to sit down and just listen..He did until I got to about the second sentence. I told him that again that he needs to just LISTEN or I wouldn't tell him. So he did and I did. You must know how this thing with my son devastated me. And what did Hunter do? He said he would support me as far as allowing me to but gas to go back and forth to the hospital and such. But that is all. He didn't want to talk about it or be supportive and he even made it sound like he was so helpful to me. He does this in all situations including my dad's funeral. He would tell people that my dad told him to go hunting to alleviate his own guilt obviously.
And now we have MY DAUGHTER'S EVICTION. I talked to my daughter on Monday about what time to come over to help pack and stuff. Then I asked about the following day. Asked if I should cancel my appt. with my therapist. She said yeah, if you can. So I came inside to call the therapist and Hunter heard my conversation when I called about cancelling. My therapist knows me well and she really impressed upon me that I needed to keep my appt. My daughter understood completely and even agreed. Right after I hung up with the therapist......Hunter went ballistic. Saying Mary was a charleton and was just "fattening her couffers " I told him she was rich and could buy him ten times over. I just listened to him blather on without responding or reacting to him. When he finally got done listening to himself I gathered my things and headed out to my daughter's. I just had to be strong for my daughter and her family without any comfort of my own when I got home. I have been a total mess inside. I think I may have flipped out a bit when I was driving home around one AM. Was at Dawn's at nine am or so. Everyone was sleeping except her husband who was out faxing and doing what he was told to do to get the eviction postponed until they could move into their new place the end of August. I was sitting on their porch smoking and drinking coffee 'till he got home. The sheriff came exactly at ten am and Jer showed him the lease papers for the new place and explained about the fax and what he was told. The sheriff made a call and there was nothing they could do. The eviction was to proceed. Jer told me to go in and wake up everybody. Then I told them about the eviction and that they needed to get dressed and gather their most valuable things and put them in our cars. Dawn started vomiting immediatley and Meadow was crying and the boys were well, the way boys are, I guess. The sheriff told us a crew would be here to remove all their belongings and set them in the yard. He said that it would take them about an hour. Jer and I both almost laughed our loud at that. I will say that the sheriff was very kind. I explained what Dawn was doing and he said I needed to stay with her to be sure she was alright and that she didn't harm herself. We got to packing as fast as we could. The crew was very kind, asking what room they would prefer us to start in, etc. Once they were done, Jer got a U-Haul and Cain called a bunch of his friends and Dawn and Jer's friends came and some of Jer's family. We finished just after dark and right as a couple rain drops started falling. They rented a hotel room after failing to get ahold of Dawns dad. They will go to front desk tomorrow to see if they can rent another room for a week or so,
In the mean time,.....Hunter isn't talking or acknowledging me and I am fine with that. I have decided that when he gets the charge card bill with cigs and gas on it.....and he will yell and threaten me....I will tell him not to worry. I have things figured out. He owes me $25,000 and I will start deducting the charges from that. Oh, I am sure he will have something to say about that but.......that's what I will do. He will have to take the card right out of my wallet cuz I sure as hell won't give it to him. And if he starts in about what a bad housewife I am...I will ignore him. He can leave me if he wants.
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