Monday, August 12, 2013

no feelings left

I don't love or hate
I am not happy nor sad
nothing is beautiful. nothing is ugly
I am not empty or full
I am not blank or written
it is not dark or light
I don't approve or disapprove
I am not attractive nor unattractive
I am not smart nor dumb
I am not tired nor awake
it is not hot.it is not cold
nothing is moving nor is it still
no peace, no war

I have no feelings left

13 comments:

lotta joy said...

Depression descends. So sorry. So familiar with your feelings. There is nothing of interest when this hits.

YeamieWaffles said...

Sorry to hear that you're going through this Middle Child, not that that helps in the slightest. I'm going through the same right now and I know how much it stings, incredibly painful.

Loretta Thomas said...

I feel your pain and know what you are saying...Hang in there...it will get better if you allow it too!

Lisa said...

My heart breaks. I recognise this monster,this darkness. It gets better, of that you have my word. xx

My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...



Take heart in the fact that nothing ever stays the same. Good, bad or indifferent!
Of THIS, I can attest to.
Meanwhile, be kind to yourself and ask your M.D. for a med to help you up out of that bottomless pit.
(((hugs m/f))) (((hugs)))

Marianna Annadanna said...

This, too, shall pass. Be kind to yourself.

Red Shoes said...

Hey you... this is how I feel... a lot. A great deal of the time.

I used to feel and all of that stuff, but something happened. I think it was the death of my Dad and the divorce that happened within a handful of months... but the demon was paxil. That crap just flat-lined me...

I'm not sure I have ever really 'lived' or 'felt' since.

I do hope things get better for you, dear.

~shoes~

AiringMyDirtyLaundry said...

I'm sorry. I hope things get better for you.

Susan said...

THIS, TOO, SHALL PASS.

By the time you read this, I do hope things are better, Middle Child. They usually do.

Thank you so much for your visit to my blog and your comment, too. Susan

Rob-bear said...

Been there . . . done that . . . and I came back. Finally got back earlier this month.

I hope that there is time for you to rest, and escape the "demons" which so easily ensnare all of us.

Blessings and Bear hugs, especially in the down times!
desert.epiphanies@sasktel.net
Bears Noting
Life in the Urban Forest (poetry)

bj said...

You know how this breaks my heart.
I am so sorry you are feeling this way.
Love, bj

Red Shoes said...

"I have no feelings left."

This type of revelation by myself... about myself... was when i realized I was floundering.

There IS a way out, however.

~shoes~

Gnetch said...

I'm trying to catch up on the posts I missed on your blog. Sorry you're going through this. Love you!!!