Thursday, September 2, 2010

anybody listening? Yes, I am.

And I want to thank all of you who responded to my last post. I now have a better understanding. Chuck is still gone and I have yet to clean the root beer off the wall and ceiling. But I will. My ass has a tendency to get stuck to the chair and my eyes glued to the TV. Imagine my dilemma when I need to go potty! But I did get a lot of things done today. And just so you know, washing machine is not fixed. After about 2 hours, I remembered I had laundry going and went down to put it in the dryer. Once again, it hadn't progressed from the first pause (after the wash cycle.) I opened the lid and heard the faint sound of the timer ticking so, I closed the lid and it went thru the rest of the cycle. Boring? Ok. How about this: I did not get electrocuted today. The ceiling fan light went out and I got a step stool, one foot on top and one on the chair, took off the light fixture and the bulb was very loose. Like in a weird way. I tried to unscrew it but it was almost like the socket was "stripped". Then it was hanging by a filament - with the base of the bulb still in the socket. Fortunately, it was not one of those days I'd rather die so I called my electrician husband. He said I could go ahead and work on it as long as the switch was off. (I thought I'd have to figure out which breaker to turn off.) Got it all taken care of. Oh, here is the WTF part of it all. Chuck told me to get the big ladder out of the garage and move the kitchen table out of the way etc.. Um, no. I'll just do it quickly and efficiently. Why, oh why does he always do things the hard way?

Tomorrow I am supposed to take my friend to the airport to pick-up her sisters and brother from the airport. She hasn't seen them in 20 years. They are coming from the Philippines. Thing is,....#1 - She hasn't called me back to confirm.
#2 - He sister and brother-in-law are going to the airport to pick them up too .
#3 - She hasn't talked to said sister and brother-in-law because,...well the reasons are just too numerous.
#4 - She said she wanted to stop at her sister's house a bit before I take them home.
#5 - Not a whole lot of this makes sense but it is all a cultural thing and I respect it because she gave my dad the best years of his life. She brought love and joy to his heart for 18 years until he died.

I just need to put this thought or pain down here so I can get it out of my heart. She hasn't had time for me since late last year. She is a caregiver and very busy but then she has time to go out with former clients and stuff. I guess it bothers me more than I thought. But I promised my dad (and would have done it anyway) that I would take care of her. Her family treats her like crap. And she is the most loving and giving person I know. She lives and breathes the word of God. I would never confront her because I know the deep pain it would cause her. I am here for her, whenever and whatever she needs. And I also know that if I called, she would drop everything to be here if I needed her. I just wish she'd call. Why should I have to be the one to keep calling?

And Saturday? FLEA MARKET!!!!!!! You have no idea how excited I am. It is my favorite thing to do. I have simple needs, small dreams. The weather will be beautiful. JOY!

Oh! I hear thunder! Need to go sit on my porch and get scared/excited. Like Nate says, "Grandma, you're weird."


The Bipolar Diva said...

Flea Market....oh yeah!

the walking man said...

Thunder without seeing lightning is like hanging out with a hot naked chick and being blind.

Joe Cap said...

I am glad you did not get electrocuted...and I bet you are too. Very funny and odd about him telling you to get the ladder and move the table, I agree there.
Have a fab day!
Is the ladder blue?

Linda Medrano said...

I love flea markets too! Have fun, Baby!

KittyCat said...

Damn that sounds like a mess. You must be one awesome person to do all that even after your father has passed.

Congrats for making it another day without electrocuting yourself.
You rock!

Oh by the way, new here.
: )

1 Funky Woman said...

Oh honey, I felt the love and I bet it would be good!

Night, night,

Ziva said...

I've always said that any day when you almost get electrocuted is a good day.

Coffeypot said...

“Why should I have to be the one to keep calling?” If she is that good a friend, ask her that very question. Calling only when she needs something seems to take her out to the edge of you taking care of her. Friendship is a two way street and there are limits to death bed promises.